JTA Blues

Okay. If you think being separated from your loved ones, friends, colleagues, or closest friends is the saddest part of being in the JTA program...

YOU'RE RIGHT!!

Well, for a person like me who loves to be with his/her circle of friends, it's really hard for me not to see my blockmates since we had different schedule, as if the JTA block was secluded from the rest of the world.  I became sad too when one of my closest friends in the block (both S2 and JTA) had to go to her country since her term is starting early.

Just before continuing this part, I went to the bathroom first to pee.  I passed by my dog's place where she's sleeping soundly. I was imagining how would I react if it's my time to go already. I won't be seeing my dog for four months. :( I will miss serving her dinner. I will miss her barks whenever I'm entering our house.  I will also miss how she licks my entire face (yes, my bitch likes licking me...).

I don't want to leave you...wait, you're not my dog!!
Don't worry Puss. You're still cute.

Yesterday, I went to school because I have a meeting to attend.  As I walk along the corridors of SEC C and CTC, stairs of Matteo, and JSEC, everything went back into my mind - my blockmates, best friends, org colleagues, professors.  Damn, I don't know but I really feel sad as I think that I won't be seeing these buildings, rooms, people for four months. 

I'm really gonna miss this.
Photo from renzpiration.blogspot.com

So there, I had a meeting with my project team and had a small chit-chat about their rants in life.  After our meeting, I met Andre, one of my closest friends in college, in CTC while he's waiting for his class.  I felt so happy because I had time to see my friends there while they're waiting for their class. 

Yes, I'm so clingy like yeah!

Currently, my problem is only about my visa since I still have no visa but I have booked a flight already on the 24th.  When my requirements were rejected by the Korean officers, I was just thinking of quitting the program and go back on regular 2nd semester with my blockmates.  I don't know but I feel so incomplete or uncomfortable without the people I'm used to be with.  No offense to the people I'll be with in Korea. It's not that I'm uncomfortable with you guys. I feel that we're close already but I'll be separated with other people I'm close to also.  

Oh well, this post is so emotional already. Not good for my health. LOL!

Comments? :D